4/22/05 01:55 am - rant rant
things have gotten pretty nasty in the apartment. If my roomates want to set up a "bi is lie" club on the internet, if they regard bisexuality as damaging to gay visability, if they want to call me "slut" and "cocksock" whenever I mention a boy, and dismiss me when ever I mention a girl, if they want to smirk at me when I get upset as if to say "now your getting it," if they want to say there are sudtle ways and not so sudtle(gay-dar) they can tell my feeling for girls are fetish and not geniune, if they regard bisexuality as loathsome and offensive to them as a minstral show then they are directly attacking me and I'm sick of dealing with it. Whats more, just because you say the n word in polish whenever you are discussing your distaste for "black behavior" your still a bigot.
When I started dating Ben, some of my bryn mawr gay friends stopped being friends with me. I told my mom I liked a girl who rejected me because I have been with boys. she said " of course" because that person would always think about the boyside and vice versa.
Still I havent thought of it as an issue. I've just always thought if I like a girl ill pursue her and that is that- same for boy. Ever since highschool I've been repeatedly rejected by girls I approached because I didnt act "gay" enough or maybe im just ugly.
Now l. doesnt even want to act friendly with me because I she can't place me.
I want to be in vermont.